What Is Happing To This World
What is happening to this World? Maybe I’m just naive, I’ve never experienced road rage. I really don’t get angry that much (those who know me can attest that I’m telling the truth here). When I do get angry I never learned that it was bad or I would be unloved for showing it or expressing it. I was course corrected by my parents. Sometimes it was a long talk, sometimes a quick smack on the bottom. I long ago learned the futility of anger at things that are out of my control.
I’ve learned to use prayer and meditate. I create a spacious container so that I can feel the anger without creating more anger. How can I ease my mind to the point that anger can arise and not be a hemorrhaging of resentment, rage or revenge, but rather a set of sensations and feelings that I experience, giving rise to healing and nourishing? Taking a breath, sinking into that space of not knowing, not judging, I must first surrender to the feeling of anger. Being the anger completely is not knowing, not being caught up with the story of my anger–which is really a distraction. The story of our anger is not the thing itself. To me, this is a long version of the simple and popular expression, “Let Go and Let God.” I play with my kids, call them, I write a story in my head, I do something creative in PhotoShop, I read. ANYTHING!
I’m not perfect, I have lots of other bad habits. So I guess I just don’t understand the fighting videos on YouTube and the angry exes videos. I have two exes, one I’m fine with the other I still have resentment toward, it’s just something I have to live with. I refuse to give either of them power over me.
So when I watched the news the other night and I see this poor screwed-up girl, 19-year-old Jessica Vasquez, I just wonder WTF happened to her?? She beat an 81 year old woman for going too slow!! What or who so abused or maligned this girl that she has so much rage? I say poor girl NOT excusing her behavior, It made me sick to my stomach. I feel so sorry for her victim, Evelyn Lois Page, 81, who is lying in a hospital bed recovering from severe face and leg injures. Not only was Miss Page beaten and verbally assaulted, but was pulled from her car by miss Vasquez who tried to throw her into on-coming traffic! I have to pray that this young woman is punished for this crime and finds peace and understanding in life. I can’t imagine going through it with that level of anger. [♦ See bottom of page for update.]
My life is far from perfect right now, it’s pretty shitty on a lot of counts. I get angry. Sometimes prayer and meditation doesn’t work or yield the comfort I need. I yell at home to the heavens, I hit a pillow, I sometimes am moved to tears and I’ve been battling some blue-chip insomnia for quite a while now. I have to muddle through. Why, why why would this girl do this?? What would drive her? Just some random little old lady? This does make me angry. I’m channeling that anger into words here and posting this. It’s really all I can do.
Here’s the story:
INDIANAPOLIS (WISH) – A south side woman is recovering in the hospital after being attacked while driving. Police said it’s a severe case of road rage.
Evelyn Lois Page, 81, is lying in a hospital bed recovering from severe face and leg injures. Page was in her car Wednesday morning when she said 19-year-old Jessica Vasquez attacked her.
“She reached in and popped me in the face and it was hard. It cut my face. They thought about putting a stitch in it.”
According to metro police, Page was driving her car when Vasquez stopped her and approached her vehicle.
“She said, ‘Well you pulled out in front of me and you were going slow and you should have been on the inner lane instead of the outer lane’,” said Page.
Here are a couple of videos of the story:
The WTHR (NBC) story is linked here.
♦ – May 2 update: Police say Jessica Vasquez has been formally charged with one county of Aggravated Battery, which is a B felony.
Also on Friday, Vasquez was preliminarily charged with an Attempted Robbery of the WalGreens at 3205 E. Washington Street. Formal charges with the prosecutor are pending. Her bond is set at $100,000.